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Lean in & Whisper /2017
03:23
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I was taught how to play the piano
When I was 5
I wasn’t taught how you work
I picked up a guitar when I was 14
I plucked the strings till my fingers hurt
Take a little look about look about you,
I’m not giving in this time
Just like my guitar
I’ll keep on trying to work you
I don’t wanna hurt you
I’m trying to work you out
If you need me to hold you
I already told you
Lean in and whisper
I grew up in a bubble
I was afraid of getting in trouble
I saw the world
Couldn’t quite agree
Guess I feel like a mother
I wanna show you the brilliant colours
I’m so afraid
That you’ll never see
Take a little look about look about you,
And allow a shard of light
Echoes of a million different lives
I’ll keep on trying to work this
I don’t wanna curse this
I’m gonna work this out
If you need me to hold you
I already told you
Lean in and whisper
You never opened up to me
How was I supposed to keep going like that
I could feel a love that was growing
But I needed someone to care for me
I couldn’t work us,
I’m sorry I hurt us,
I couldn’t work us out.
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Heart Tracks /2018
03:14
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I can fall asleep next to you
I can’t do that with anyone
I can share plans with you
Cos you wouldn’t give up your dreams for me and I like that
You write your stories
And I’ll write my heart tracks
You’re a glitch in my system manual
There is no page on a thing so animal
You wouldn’t give up your dream for me and I like that
Tell me is it ok
If I soften my skin for you
I think maybe I’m here to stay
Scared to move forward but I do not wanna go back
You write your stories and I’ll write my heart tracks
You’re a glitch in my system manual
Magical, bare with me while I crack the code
You wouldn’t give up your dream for me and I like that
I can’t say we’re not going home cos I wanna
I can’t say leave me be cos you’re not gonna
For once there’s nothing
To send us running
Disconnected wires hang free in the circuit I’m so wonderfully disconcerted
For once there’s something
But we both know nothing
You wouldn’t give up your dream for me,
So you write your stories and I’ll write my heart tracks.
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3. |
Up in Smoke /2019
03:04
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I see the way you see
Rub my eyes you’re real
Don’t try to hide cos I wanna take you in
Wanna rub your atmosphere onto my skin
I can see everything
You’re my hallucinogen
If we go up in smoke
We would be high
We wouldn’t choke
If we go if we go up in smoke
We would bring life
We would explode
Ooooh
I can see everything in the sharpest detail
Sober but you’re the best thing I’ve ever inhaled
Stay in my lungs so If we go up in smoke
You’re by my side
You’ll never go
This finally feels like home
I don’t need to learn how to let go
Holding me tight cos you wanna breathe me in
Wanna rub my atmosphere onto your skin
You take me as I am
A firework in your hands
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4. |
Hayfever /2019
03:37
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Glad you didn’t know me that way
You’ll never remember
The mass of burning embers
Flower opening day by day
Now you give me hayfever
Though my lungs are so much cleaner
Love the smell of fire gone out
Blew your smoke right out my mouth
Still somethin drifts around
You give me hayfever
She’s my heart but you steal her
Burning like the sun through time
Will you ever leave her?
She’s my heart but you steal her
I found a plant cutting in my pocket
Hoped that I could grow it again some day
Been busy being a daughter
is it too late to water?
can’t decipher words you write
need to look you in the eye
is it still alive
We let go
Watery eyed
Left a rolling film
Thought we’d stopped
then i hit rewind
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5. |
Absorb /2019
03:14
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The rain sounds like african drums in my brain
Do I need a reason why I’m here
In Spain, had to cross over borders to escape
Did i overestimate the power of being alone
I got on a plane to escape the pain
Before it became fear
Yeah I found a love it tore me up
We were born with a brain
So why do they treat us like
We’re in a simulation game
Watched from above like we care who is watching
I got on a plane to escape the pain
Before it became fear
Yeah I tried alone, but I don’t know
But I still need to absorb people like cotton wool
Put me in a vase cos i’m drinking like flowers do
I lost a God, and learnt to believe
I found a love, was torn in 3
But I still need to soak up every last drop of you
Fine on my own but it’s quiet in spite of the hammering rain
I need it to grow
I know but I still need to absorb
Oooh
Everybody here is vulnerable
I wanna look down tunnels
I wanna know what’s at the bottom
What makes the rain sound like African drums in your brain
I still need to absorb people like
Fine on my own but it’s quiet in spite of the
hammering rain, I need it to grow,
but I still need to absorb
Oooh
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6. |
Stay Awake /2019
03:14
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This is addictive
Digging up feelings
What can we conjure up, cover up, discover that’s been buried
Is there a layer underneath the chemicals
Are we still moving when we’re totally still
We are more than the cells in our body
It is not a secret
Though the leaders try to keep it so
There will always be darkness
And their job is to hide us in it
we are so easily swept away in our own brain and they know it
I haven’t even taken a sip of this
But I’m Inebriated
i just wanna know what i can feel
how deep, how strong, how right, for how long
We are more than the cells in our body
It is not a secret
Though the leaders try to keep it so
Pinch your skin cos it’s yours to inhabit
They’ve got us dreamin of
fear when we have had enough
(Stay awake. Stay awake. (eastern scale) Throwing sand in our eyes)
stay awake stay awake stay
we all got something to say
they will throw sand in our eyes
sand is just glass in disguise
stay awake stay awake stay
we are not powerless prey
in our humanity lies
the element of surprise
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7. |
Animal Souls /2019
02:58
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I am not special
I am not different from all of you
I can only express what I feel is true
I am not special
You are not damaged
I can see light shining through the cracks
We are not here to be thin and fast
You are not damaged
Everything rushes
And everything hushes your soul
Cos if you were watered then you wouldn’t pay them to grow
We got animal souls
We got animal souls
Living in boxes and fearing the rain
Cos if we were watered
We’d beat them all in this game
we’ll never be peaceful
don’t deserve kindness or self respect
we gotta work till we’re thoroughly spent
we’ll never find peace
this isn’t a journey
all that matters is where you can be
a place you’ll never believe you can reach
but stop and you’re lazy
We got animal souls
We got animal souls
Staring down mirrors and wishing we’d change
Cos if we were stronger
We’d beat them all in this game
they call you mad when you hear voices
but you know those voices better than the people who make your choices
what you should eat what you should wear
what should make you feel good or pull out your hair
Spoonfed with anger, weakened by pain,
If we were stronger
They know that we’d want to play.
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8. |
Cast My Love /2018
03:30
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Even now you’re gone I can feel ya
Pricklin my skin like we’re inches apart
I can feel your heart
Even though I know we’re a nightmare
The steps in between start to formulate a dream
And it gets so hard
Hard to remember
Why we were wrong
Every december you kept me warm
Third time it snowed my body was cryin out for ya
I’m gonna cast my love over the water
I’m gonna cast my love on you
I’m gonna cast my love so very far
Cos when we’re apart, I feel your heart
I don’t wanna keep you for keep sakes
But i dunno maybe we’re meant to be soul mates
With separate lives
I’ll get a husband, you’ll get a wife
We’ll cut the cake with a double edged knife
(Cryin out for ya)
Our net was too weak
Split apart with a force so heavy
I ride the peaks
You prefer the ocean floor on your feet
White foam like icecream
Gotta taste of the sweetness I need
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9. |
I Can't Give Up /2018
03:33
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All That I Know /2019
03:24
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Am I confused?
Or am I just sure that I don’t know
Am I gonna lose,
Or have I made this target up,
Out of thin air,
Each day I drift,
I search for more
Will it shift?
All that I know is that I’m ready to find you
But I can’t even find myself
All I can show is that I’m not really OK
So I stay behind
And wait for tomorrow night
oooh, tomorrow night
oh then I will be alright.
Told me you loved me so
Made sure you let me know
That I cut you deep and that cut me deep (too)
Then only 2 weeks on
You’re pouring coffee for
another heart,
I can’t believe,
You ever wanted me for me
All that I know is that I’m ready to find you
But I can’t even find myself
All I can show is that I’m not really OK
So I stay behind
All that I know is I’d be ready to catch you,
Like droplets above my head
I’ll let you know that no matter how I feel
Your dark can be bright
and we’ll wait for tomorrow night
oooh tomorrow night,
Oh then we will be alright.
Clocks turn too fast
No I’ll never be ready
Take 3 deep breaths
Who said that I cant take time
Take as long as I need
I’ll be fine
When the world stops breathing down my neck
Cast away we’ll be each other’s wreck
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11. |
Watertight /2019
03:37
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12. |
Lunacy /2018
03:23
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I don’t like these colours I’m showing
In control and now I don’t know what’s going on
Painting numbers but I can’t tell 10 from 1
I’m so used to laying it all out
On the line, I don’t hide cos things go wrong
Yeah we’ve tried, but third time could be the lucky one
There’s a fine line between love and emptiness, yeah I’m a mess
No ones had a hold of my soul like this before
Haven’t shown these colours you’re seein ever before
Even grey looks pretty in this dark cave
Convince myself it’s all ok if we go slowly
How am I sposed to know if I love you when I’m lonely
Let’s watch the tv like we’re just friends
Cos if I have to break one more heart then mines dead
You help me cope but if you take just one more step
Take me away from my brain
Just for a second I wanna be free
Take me away from the clothes on my frame
Just for a second I wanna be me
Cos I love too much
But somehow not enough
I don’t how to soothe, when it’s lie or lose you
Take me away take me away now
from the clothes on my frame, thoughts in my brain now
Got too much love but still gonna lose you
Yeah I’m a mess and no body held me like you
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14. |
Moon Craters /2019
03:10
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I am a spaceship
I believe I can make it
To wherever I first set out to be
Floating out to the moon craters
My head and my limbs detach and I spin
Happier than I’ve ever been
Heading out to the
moon craters
I can see moooooon craters
I’ll walk on them soon or walk on them later
Doesn’t matter cos I can see them
I can see moooon
craters
no i don’t need night vision
for this ocular space mission
i’m drowning in tired light
Floating out to the moon craters
This spherical thing alone with no ring
We can be eachothers company
Heading out to the
we can be each others company
like mothers cut our problems down the middle
take a piece of my eyes
place a shard of your light in my palm
i can feel your calm
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15. |
Balancing Act /2020
03:12
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I don’t sleep for 7 days
The world is bleak
And I feel crazy
And then I wake
Some sunny day
Everything’s great
I feel amazing
I’m not weak or so they say
I get up when I’ve been crawling
lick the dirt right off my fingertips
is that really a way to live
And this balancing act has got me fallin every day
tap my head & i’ll crack I need to feed you anyway
morning night i never know when i existed right
yeah this balancing act is just that
[And this balancing act has got me wakin upside down
in my cave like a bat if i just stay here I won’t drown
morning night i never know when i existed right
yeah this balancing act is just that]
Didn’t ask, when i was born
if i’d like to be a grown up
taught that being young is free
but you gotta prove your worth now
i got 16 plates stacked onto my skull
nothing to do but i still feel stressed
just let me show you how i can run
i won’t let em fall by they do one by one
i look up at the tallest buildings
rise on up octagonal feelings
feel you bubble tease me at the edge
suddenly the sun is shining
i forget my soul was cryin
i’m in trouble
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16. |
Be Gentle /2019
03:05
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The beauty
of waking up without a war inside your head
held by something more than just the sheets on your bed
"are you with me are you with me?" they said
"we’ve been rapping on the window for 3 days
come along be gentle see the light on your face
take a shower, feel it all wash away"
oooh be gentle today
oooh you’ve returned from a dangerous place
oooh be gentle today
be gentle today
be gentle today
the white walls you’ve been staring at for hours
are doing good to keep you safe
when your body felt an earthquake shatter holes in your faith
took a deep breath
wouldn’t let yourself break
in the morning when you feel the days offering
though it may not be what you needed it to bring
take it kindly shake it’s hand and begin
oooh be gentle today
ooh yesterday was a hard one to chase
So be gentle today
be gentle today
be gentle today
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i been makin demos
i been opening my heart
i’ve been creasing my forehead at the sorry state of the arts
any piece of joy
has led me back to the same sign
the one that says
god dammit make what you love cos it ain’t mine
i’m a feeeeeeler
a deeeep breather
a fuck whoever tells me i’m not born for this believer
I teach ya
That we’re all on the same plane
and if I don’t create i’ll be turning up late every day
to the same job that i hate
believe me when i say
i’m born for this HEY
(i won’t suffocate if i’m singin the songs that i made
it’s lonely but i know that i got my holmeys
art should never be out of our reach)
i been walkin miles
with my guitar on my back
been meeting beautiful people all stuck on the same track
each and every turn
has led me back to the same sign
the one that says
god dammit do it your way cos you’re in it for life
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18. |
Not in Space /2016
03:26
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There’s a muffled voice in my head
Tryna figure out what it said
Take a little time now
To remember
Take a little time out
To recall
Why we're here and not in space
We were built to conversate
Interaction here is key
Come and lie in the grass with me
We were born into our mothers arms
Possibly the opposite of weapons
Frightened of emotion (motion)
I'm broken
Something isn't quite right at all
Feet are planted in the earth
Food and water can't divert
Feeling drawn to company
What do I do when I'm feeling this lonely inside
When the night falls
And even my
Shadow is gone and I'm taken away to this place in my mind
I'm reminded
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