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Vitamin Be

by Natalie Holmes

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1.
Floating TV 03:35
Do I wanna move in Do I wanna move out Should I be collecting things Or giving them to charity Have you seen the remote I just need to be stoked On how the world is run by kids If kids were never taught what love is I wanna be a pirate I wanna have sails Never be taught to fear Cos fear cannot prevail I wanna throw my TV into the ocean Ooh Ooh Ooh Do I wanna be seen Do I wanna be hidden Tired of putting trees in bins Don’t want 20 percent off all these Things that you’re selling My heart is propelling Out of the door to a place where there’s more I wanna leave the harbour Anywhere exposed If I gotta carry the anchor that’s the way it goes I wanna hold the hands of everyone on board Ooh Ooh Ooh Ahhhh (oh oh oh) Ahhhh We’ll watch as the sea Takes our floating tv and imagine our life with a purpose No more fake news Or summer sale queues My friends we are joining the circus We’ll watch as the sea Takes our floating TV Do I wanna be in Do I wanna be out A siren of the starry night Not a piece of land in sight
2.
Water and sunlight will do just fine I don’t need roots to feel like I’m A valid human, ticking boxes Married, kids, a top floor office Softer every time I swim Dip my skin into a mercury ocean A mercury ocean Been using soap to clean my soul I noticed how much more I grow From rolling in the mud and sand Grabbing moss with both my hands Softer every time I swim Dip my skin into a mercury ocean Into a plain white sky In a place where I can see the Rain drops bouncing Like the sky and the sea are all just one Endless sky A little like i’ve died and gone to Heaven or I just fell in love with mercury that night Something’s not right when the day speaks to me at night It climbs into my bed, flashing pictures like a TV set I’m gonna cling to whatever, sing to whatever Stand on my head for the clearest view And when I notice the colour is fading to black I’m gonna dip my skin into A mercury ocean A mercury ocean Into a plain white sky In a place where I can see the Rain drops bouncing Like the sky and the sea are all just one Endless sky A little like i’ve died and gone to Heaven or I just fell in love with mercury that night
3.
Set my wheels spinning on the runway 10 years ago Never really had a destination I just let it grow No body that was someone Told me it would take off So I wrote another song hell maybe this is the one I’ve been flyin’ low Trying to breathe slow (Ooh)       Lost track of how many times I was choking But my breath never stopped Then when I thought we might be lifting The wind fuckin’ dropped No body that was someone Told me I would go far I could see them judge another girl and guitar You believe you know But not a soul knows Maybe it’s lucky that I landed I could walk anywhere I wanted No one would stop me Take pictures of me I’m sorry the world thinks that that’s OK Maybe it’s lucky that I landed I could walk anywhere I wanted No one would stop me Take pictures of me I’m sorry the world thinks that that’s OK Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh After all this Do I want fame Not with my name Have you seen what it brings
4.
Wave Back 03:21
Isn’t it strange that I see things in a different way than your eyes do When your eyes are mine We close them at night and dream I don’t know where I go when I stare into the bathroom mirror If I wave at her I don’t think she’ll wave back If I wave at her I don’t think she’ll wave back I try to face everything alone Alone When honestly i’ve never been alone Alone Isn’t it strange Isn’t it strange Isn’t it strange Isn’t it strange Isn’t it strange Isn’t it strange Isn’t it strange Isn’t it strange Isn’t it strange (Isn’t it so strange) If I wave at her don’t think she’ll wave back If I wave at her don’t think she’ll wave back Ahhh [spoken: Do you ever feel separate in yourself, like your thoughts and your body are not the same thing? It’s really scary]
5.
Dandelion 03:18
Was it when you were taking deep breaths on the step outside the school? Feeling ornamental like you’d crack right down the middle Your raincoat is yellow and all of the water got through Hard to feel normal when you’re wet but the sky is blue The sky is so blue But something’s blowing all the seeds out of your head Dandelion in a hurricane and nobody gets it  Stretch your trembling fingers out from side to side, And glide Ooh  Taking up space yeah you’re out of control like a garden of weeds Feeling inconvenient might as well make yourself little  Soak up the soil its always been loyal to you Hard to feel normal when normal just tears you in two The sky is so blue But something’s blowing all the seeds out of your hand Dandelion in a hurricane does anybody understand? Stretch your trembling fingers out from side to side And glide  Ooh Down low you see every detail  Up close see the scars on blades of grass Magnified (Glide, glide)
6.
Everyday I open my eyes But keeping them open is tiring Whatever became of natural light It used to make my body glow Woah Woah I’m trying every other kind of light Like letting music fill my insides I wonder if I could be bioluminescent Ooh I gotta change it up I gotta move on Ooh I’m taking in all the light that I can In the place that I stand What if we didn’t have to rely On people and coffee and weather What if we had it all of the time and only had to realise Woah I’m pushing through all of the eery black To find the part of me that’s intact What I’m already bioluminescent? Ooh I gotta change it up I gotta move on Ooh I’m taking in all the light that I can In the place that I stand You’ve got it in you You light up the room You’ll find it soon Ooh, you light up the room.
7.
Tricks 02:50
I felt like shit today when I woke up But it’s happened enough times that I’ve learnt to get by I go outside to feel the sun on my face And if the suns not there Well now we gotta pull out all the tricks All of the tricks like I’m here for a reason And I’m gonna learn from the pain that I’m feeling I could be happy if only I tried a little harder All of the tricks like Taking a deep breathe Telling myself stop being so complex I could be happy if only I stopped looking for the answer I managed it today though I woke up Thinking everything was scary everybody out to get me nooo Ooh brought up to chase heaven I always came second And if God’s not there Well now we gotta pull out all the tricks All of the tricks like I’m here for a reason And I’m gonna learn from the pain that I’m feeling I could be happy if only I tried a little harder All of the tricks like Taking a deep breathe Telling myself stop being so complex I could be happy if only I stopped looking for the answer It’s like cradling a baby screaming louder screaming louder Come and save me from myself Tired of scratching pennies on my mind ‘Cos hey today could be the day I win Crawling up a mountain like when I get up The view is gonna say it loves me back But every day’s a new hack Am I on the right track What even is the right track Tell me what I’m supposed to do to fight back
8.
9.
Pretty Birds 03:36
Underneath my skin There’s a river flowing There’s a river flowing Just beneath the surface Don’t know where it’s going Don’t know where it’s going Sometimes I’m surprised what I find lying on the bank Whether it’s the song I wrote or the wine I drank I dance up walls and hit the fan, We can only carry what we can, Just so that you know, I’m not a show. And I don’t have to look the way you look, Or read from the same damn book, Just so you know, I’m not a show. Ooooh. Rationality melts away like, like, buutter on a hot day And we all pretend, isn’t being naive a godsend. And we just keep beating our wings, Painting glitter all over our wings, We are better than this, better than this. CHORUS There’s a constant hum and it’s getting louder All the pretty birds calling out for power Flashing colour like it’s all that matters Staring down mirrors until their brain shatters. Like it’s all that matters.
10.
Dropslide 04:38
Can I shut the curtains Baby cos the outside isn't doing much for me Something bout the low light Helping me to feel like I don't need to care Cos every time I meet you it's so new Find out ‘bout your family, find out ‘bout you Maybe I'm stuck in what I know And who I know how to be It's uncertain It's unkind But when it's right It's so so right Just one push on A dropslide I need to get past, the point of no return So close, then gone in a flash Are you gonna be the face I can't get out my mind 3, 2, 1 dropslide Will you be my weakness Close the gap between us Everybody's strangers But I think we might change this Cos every time I meet you it's so new Find out ‘bout your family, find out ‘bout you Maybe I'm stuck in what I know And who I know how to be It's uncertain It's unkind But when it's right It's so so right Just one push on A dropslide I need to get past, the point of no return So close, then gone in a flash Are you gonna be the face I can't get out my mind 3, 2, 1 drop slide Push me over the edge Push me over the edge
11.
Be Gentle 03:06
The beauty of waking up without a war inside your head Held by something more than just the sheets on your bed “Are you with me are you with me?" They said “We’ve been rapping on the window for 3 days Come along be gentle see the light on your face Take a shower, feel it all wash away" Oooh be gentle today Oooh you’ve returned from a dangerous place Oooh be gentle today Be gentle today Be gentle today The white walls you’ve been staring at for hours Are doing good to keep you safe When your body felt an earthquake shatter holes in your faith Took a deep breath Wouldn’t let yourself break
 In the morning when you feel the days offering Though it may not be what you needed it to bring Take it kindly, shake it’s hand and begin
 Oooh be gentle today Oooh you’ve returned from a dangerous place Oooh be gentle today Be gentle today Be gentle today Be gentle (Darling be gentle, darling be gentle, won’t you be gentle, darling) Oooh be gentle today Ooh yesterday was a hard one to chase So be gentle today Be gentle today Be gentle today
12.
Moon Craters 03:08
I am a spaceship I believe I can make it To wherever I first set out to be Floating out to the moon craters My head and my limbs detach and I spin Happier than I’ve ever been Heading out to the Moon craters I can see moon craters I’ll walk on them soon or walk on them later
Doesn’t matter cos I can see them I can see moon craters No I don’t need night vision For this ocular space mission I’m drowning in tired light Floating out to the moon craters This spherical thing alone with no ring We can be each others company Heading out to the Moon craters I can see moon craters I’ll walk on them soon or walk on them later
Doesn’t matter cos I can see them I can see moon craters We can be each others company Like mothers 
Cut our problems down the middle Take a piece of my eyes Place a shard of your light in my palm I can feel your calm
13.
Salt 03:34
Tryin to write a pop song I just wanna drop some Feelings in this mould If it isn’t tasty Even when it’s sweet just Add a bit of salt Every time I think of you I Chuckle like the brothers do You’re dancing like a jellyfish In the kitchen 7am what a wake up call I notice that my heart is out, oops It’s beating on the counter top, fools Rush in but I never doubted Bada bum bum bada bum bum you I’m so glad I met you at this space in time Now sweeping up sugar cos you are my You are my salt You make everything taste better You are my salt (you are my, you are my) You are my salt You make everything taste better You are my salt (you are my, you are my) Been stuck all my life on the orange light Until you showed me green grass and sapphire sky Knees under a tree like I’m At a desk now back to school learning things that We should be taught before we crack numbers Like how to cope the millionth time we stumble Paper cuts are just for starters Bada bum bum bada bum bum So glad I met you at this space in time Now sweeping up sugar cos you are my You are my salt You make everything taste better You are my salt (you are my, you are my) You are my salt You make everything taste better You are my salt (you are my, you are my) Out of silk and out of sight Strong without a thousand eyes So glad that I met you as I am

about

Combining her soberingly relatable, yet soothing lyrics with an ethereal, honey-toned voice, she sets out to strike a conversation between the conflicting effects of modern society, and those of the natural world on our ability to be content. With mental health struggles being talked about and diagnosed more and more, Natalie felt called to write about the in-the-middle, undiagnosed struggle. The simple bewilderment at being a young adult in today’s society and the pressures that brings. The comparisons we make on social media, the now accessible-to-anyone concept of fame and success, and the money fears that leave younger generations wanting to run for the mountains.

For the last 10 years, Holmes has been releasing deeply reflective and strikingly vulnerable songs in the form of singles, EP’s and self-produced demo albums on Bandcamp, as well as writing and producing monthly demos for her Patrons for the past 3 years. As a result, with her production skills at the strongest they’ve been, she decided to self-produce Vitamin Be, and the world of sounds you hear is entirely her own.

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released August 26, 2022

Written, produced, mixed by Natalie Holmes - natalieholmes.co.uk
Mastered by Gavin McGrath - www.zvukmastering.com

Cello - Ben Cannell
Bass - Harry Harding
Drums - Andrew Scott

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